But I feel sick inside.
I am finally learning at past 40 to pay attention to how I feel and that how I feel physically and emotionally are connected. Maybe that’s blatantly obvious to you but I didn’t know that, not in experience anyway, not for me.
In learning to pay attention to how I feel I am also learning to take the time to figure out where the feelings are coming from. God told me this project would stretch me. The good news with that is He will show me a part of Himself I have not known before that He couldn’t show me without the stretching.
My spirit is excited.
My soul is uncomfortable.
So this sick feeling has been bothering me all week. I’ve taken moments here and there to reflect on why I’m feeling this way.
I want people to like what I’m doing, for it to make sense, for it to make an impact. In part I am nervous that none of those things will be true.
What struck me yesterday was that I have gotten feedback that all of them were true and I felt sicker than ever! What is wrong with me?!
I see your hurt and I care. I’m proud of your growth. Your “yes” to stretching.
Is there an area God is stretching you? Have you asked Him what He will be for you there?